For the past 4 years I’ve eaten extremely healthy. I’ve been within 5 pounds of 116 since May 2009. Prior to that my weight was up and down, but I was pretty much “normal” sized most of my life. About 12 years ago I was in a very “difficult” relationship with an alcoholic, and I ballooned up to 240 pounds. To make a long story short I lost 100 pounds on my own (in a very unhealthy way) but then slowly started packing the pounds back on again.

I joined Weight Watchers in September of 2008 at 184 pounds (I’m 5’4 by the way). For the first time in my life I learned how to eat healthy. I didn’t count points; I followed the Core plan, which is basically where you can only eat certain foods off a specific list. Let me tell you, the pounds just fell off. I was at goal weight by May 2009.

In the Fall of 2009 I started the Couch to 5k program (at coolrunning.com). Once I made it through week 5 I was hooked! I finished the C25k and moved onto the 10k program. From there I went on to run 10 miles, and then started training for half marathons. Halfs are definitely my favorite distance (so far!).

In the Spring of 2010 I watched a documentary, Food Inc., and immediately stopped eating meat. After that came the China Study, Forks over Knives, etc., and I gave up eggs and (about 99% of) dairy as well. I became an advocate for Farm Sanctuary – raising money and running for them. I even have an adopted duck named Preston :)

I’m not sure what made me start adding more dairy back into my diet, but after today I see it’s gotten out of hand, and I guess that’s my main reason for sharing all of this. As I said, I’ve been eating extremely healthy for the past 4 years. Today, however, was NOT a healthy day, and it’s caused me to reassess where I’m at- in my diet and my beliefs.

I know in my heart that I will never eat animal flesh again, but why am I able to justify dairy? And what makes me think I can stay under 120 pounds by eating the crap I ate today?!

I’ll leave it at that for now and share today’s bad choices…

• Breakfast: 4 cups coffee with Cafe Mocha and Entenmann’s Devil’s Food donuts
• Lunch: Baked macaroni and cheese
• Snack: Nutter Butter snack pack
• Dinner: Salad (3 cups shredded lettuce with diced tomatoes, onions and celery) with sliced black olives, sesame sticks, and Tahini Lime Sauce

Workout: 3 miles easy (@5.6) plus .75 (@6mph)

Gotta Run!